stop and stare

is dreaming that i'll go bald twice a sign that i'm stressed?!

kpopzzzz, i need to see dbsk in concert. that would happen after seeing kelly clarkson of course. somehow the dbsk plan seems more tangible though.

joel

KPOP AND JAP DRAMAS :)
taiwan trip soon!





my title is freaking longer than what i posted, but whatever!




Joel
sorrysorrysorrysorry...

My ipod has failed me.
After 4 years of service, the battery of my ipod decided "oh, i'm tired"
thus it went from a productive worker of 8 hours to just 3 hours each time I fully charge.
Using economic theory, productivity of the battery drops and the cost increase.
Hence, I can conclude that the unit cost per production which is listening to music is getting more expensive. tsktsk, so i spent 70 dollars to ensure that I get better consumer satisfaction. HOHO. DAMN YOU ELECTROLYSIS, you're suppose to be rechargable!

To my horror, on tuesday, the right side of my earphone didn't work. I was fuming on the inside of course, it's a 50 dollar earpiece. After further investigation, it found out it wasn't my earpiece but actually my ipod which caused the right side of my kelly music to probably vanish to another plane of the world. After fixing, it's fine. I assume. I found it on my table, but haven't tried it.

If it's spoilt, I'm gonna throw a BF (bitch fit) and buy an itouch. I mean you're not perfectly substitutable, but you still can be substituted. So you better work on me!

I registered for SATs, and I'm flunking their english practice questions. Other than that, I'm so not stressed to do well cause I really wanna go to USA in pursuit of furthering my education, widening my narrow horizons and staring at blondes, or brunettes.

I NEED THE A's for my A's.

In a cheeyang fashion. OK, bye.
I'm really tired, but I can't bring myself to sleep without doing anything :(


Joel

BT2 has passed real quickly, school has started proper.
Temperature taking in the morning is a hassle, but it helps us miss assembly which is awesome.
Anyway, I have watched Harry Potter 6 and Transformers 2 both I might was fabulous, and went for my medical check up.

It's been a very tiring week, trying to finish my work, which is more or less done, but I haven't started revising and prelims is in 5 weeks which isn't a lot of time. After going for the university fair, I realised that prelim results are rather important which means I gotta put in more effort. MUCH MORE EFFORT.

Studies aside, I wanna learn how to play the guitar!

exams has really sucked.
time management was horrid, question analysis was so well done.
I have chemistry and geography tomorrow. JOY!

At least Kelly Clarkson is gonna be on So you think you can dance.

next thing i'll totally do is paint my toenails black right?
if i had magical powers, i totally blow you into pieces.
and probably my tongue too. cause the next thing you'll see is my tongue down someone else's throat.

Joel.

I take hours to complete little cause I keep getting distracted.

facebook, twitter, youtube, movies, so you think you can dance and now harper's island(bless the writers for being so genius).

FOCUS JOEL, FOCUS JOEL.

Everyone is talking about Michael Jackson. I got a sms early in the morning to tell me about it. I haven't really heard his songs before, but I'm sure they're great.

When will kelly clarkson's next mtv be out?

I NEED TRANSFORMERS 2!!

screw bt2.

We tried so hard. We put in so much effort.
All you could say was that you thought we would get a silver.
We should be thankful with a gold.

We know we weren't the best. You probably hated our batch the most.
But can't you give us a little recognition for our efforts?
You could omit the whole silver part. I'll be much better.

I wasn't too disappointed not to play for presentation night because it was a logical decision.
Studies, time limit.
But I was disappointed when you said you thought we would get a silver.
Was that the best you ever thought of us?
Was our best, only worth a silver to you?

You may not know, but your opinion matters more than the judges.
And to know that you thought we scraped a gold.
It just makes me feel like my efforts went down the drain.

I'm emotionally drained. perhaps it's time to put on braces.


joel

I have been a real shopaholic these few weeks.
river island shoes - $40
river island belt - $25
2 topman formal shirts - $60
threadless top - $23
recoil polo tee - $28
flesh imp top - $35

earphones - $50

not including the money I spent on food therapy to get over the freaking gold. lots of ice cream, chomp chomp, sushi buffets and so much more.
and the many movies I watched this month (4 movies already)

I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets. I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets. I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets. I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.I need to hide my nets.

Not forgetting the very nice glass of whiskey sour I had at Harry's bar with the others!




LOVE this people. there's Jiaying, Sheldon.

I met Mel while celebrating my dad's birthday yesterday! It was her dad's birthday too. Cool.


Joel

I am happy today.
A sms and many many phone calls.
WE GOT INTO PRESENTATION NIGHT :)
just when I thought there wasn't a chance.
just when others thought we couldn't make it into pres night.
we got it.

Let's go on stage and perform again. Make this performance even better!
A great way to end my band journey :)
To Eve, your wish came true!

I went to chomp chomp today with the Saxohorns.
The weather was bad at Sheldon's house so he couldn't come. But we ate your share.
Everything was delicious. The only thing that sucked was the long journey home.
It's all worth it anyway.

Anyway, got a haircut at Chapter 2 at Marina before chomp chomping.
My hair is short, not complaining though.

Life's been weird without band. I feel a little lost.
But now my main focus is of course to study. I can't just think about passing anymore.
I gotta think about ace-ing.

Speaking of which, I did not study today. I watched American Idol.
I'm quite sure Adam will win, if you judged by the performances.
Kris was kinda struggling at the last song, but I don't blame him.
His tone suited the last song bette than Adam though.
It's gonna be drama in school tomorrow. Especially GP cause it's results time.
I really hope kelly clarkson performs tomorrow (one can only hope).
I feel like I'm ranting. It should be sleeping time. NIGHTS!


Joel

We had a batch bbq on aaturday!
It was really great and much much fun.
Crapped alot with the others, the food was good especially the roasted marshmallows and sambal sotong/stingray!

Met up with my seniors before the bbq. It was fun.
Ali, Jeremy and James kept on talking about NS. Well, it certainly will be an experience for me. So we'll see.

At the BBQ, samuel made delicious fondue too!
And we took many many pictures :)

Batch picture 08/09



We have been through so much. We were never the strongest batch, in fact perhaps the weakest, but we worked so hard. We improved so much. Those who critisize us, they don't know what we've been through and they will never understand. If they continue bringing us down, let them. Just don't be affected by it. If they actually bothered, instead of critisizing, they should be helping us. The performance we gave on 7th May is something I would never wanna trade away.

SAXOHORNETS (mel, ivan and joseph missing in pic)



The ones who make my band life complete. Only knowing for 1 plus years. We have been through so much! Perth, concerts and the many outings. Gosh, it rocked. Sheldon and his lame jokes. Yiling for being so hyper everytime. Eve for the being so so frank. Eunice for all your craziness. Belinda for putting up with our crap and falling for our jokes. Jiaying for getting more bitchy and probably the most sensible one. Without all of you, band life for me will be so different.

Phyllis for being the strong leader. I'm sure there were times you wanted to give up. But I'm glad you didn't. Eric too for not giving up on us.


Joel!

I think I've cried until I have no more tears left in me for the year.
Waking at 4 am just to warm up and practice.
To being so unfocused and distracted during practice in the hall.
Mr G lectured us, led us into focusing on the performance.

And we did. We did perform. Not play, but perform.
From the first chord we played which I would say is an orgasmic church organ chord!
Till the fiery last note of El Cam. We performed.

This has been tough, we all the know that. Our batch hasn't been the strongest.
We fought so hard. Practiced so much. Had sectionals like I've never had before.
We played our very best. So what the award we wanted didn't land into our hands.
Performance does not equal to award.

I'm so glad that in the end everyone didn't focus on the award on stage and had fun.
We really did have lots on fun on stage. And thats most important.

Anyway, I thank god for my section. The most cooperative section ever.
For working so hard, tolerating the nonsense and shit I give them.
Yiling and Belinda, we have improved by leaps and bonds. Seriously.
We had damn lot of trouble tunings our beatles soli last time,
but now our el cam so much better in tune! I'm so proud and thankful for the 2 of you.
Amanda and Shermaine, 2 juniors who make my life easier.
Jeremy and Aaron for coming down to help us so often.
James for coming when you can especially when you're in army.
Farah also for coming down to support with your broken arm.
Margaret for the herbal drinks and food. Not forgetting Miner for the shoes!

I'm gonna leave those tears at RP,and just accept what they've given us.
Sgbandfusion forum is damn interesting. A good read!


Joel

I spent labour day outside with saxohornets!
Had really good chicken rice and teh peng at far east.
Far east was so empty. It was scary how empty it was.
It's at freaking orchard.

Anyway I got a t shirt from Flesh Imp.
And another polo t from recoil.

Tampines is too crowded for my liking and haji lane is super cool!

I came to this livejournal with intentions to blog really really bad stuff. But that was in the morning, now that I've calm down, the day wasn't as bad as it would have been. So I mellowed down loads of stuff.

I was late for school today because the bus came late, I did not wake up late! Not me. Maybe I should try to catch the even earlier bus. That would be so discipline committee approved, I mean we all know how outrageous they can be. It's always your fault ain't it.

Anyway, some teacher has issues. No naming la. All the legal troubles and what nots. WHY?! what happened to freedom of expression and speech. So this teacher gave us damn lot of homework like 183478923 weeks ago. I mean giving us lots of homework is one thing, but, I EMPHASIZE BUT!! it(gender is secret) doesn't tell us the exact deadline. Of course it expects everyone of us to be
1) psychic so we know when we're suppose to complete it by.
2) have the energy and all the time to do it whenever she suddenly wants its cause WE SO DON'T HAVE TO PREPARE for SYF/SEASON. (this is the part where they go syf/season is not going to get you anywhere, only results will. But the point of being in a CCA is to cultivate teamwork, being responsible to every single one of your teammate. If not you're only gonna hold back the others from progressing.)

I mean yeah, I will do your homework just tell me when is it due! I don't have bionic memory or telepathy to know what you want next. GOSH they could be so ridiculous sometimes with all due respect!

But of course I shall not dedicate one whole post to someone who ruined my day!!

I went out for a movie with Eu, Mich and Chee on Saturday. It was fun and Kenny Rogers is really quite good. I'm gonna pick up elvish language, play tennis and swim a lot after A levels. But I'm glad cause I'm going to retail on friday! Because an increase in C leads to an increase in AD! Hallelujah. But for Singapore's context it won't change anything cause it has a measly part in AD! Foreigners, BUY MORE SINGAPORE GOODS!!!

But remember people, wear a mask, wash your hands and stay at home if you have a flu(it's different from nose thing eve has. I'm not spelling it)

Just go onto stage and perform.

Joel

i got a fucking b for pw. i gotta get it out of my system.
yes, it's not that bad. but b is not the best.

now that it's out.
joel, you gotta embrace it. instead of harping over it.
harping won't help. harping won't help.
most important thing is you bounce back.

damn you for being weak. bounce back!

No no. I'm not emo or anything.
Just wanna post lyrics on my blog. thats all.

Cry - Kelly Clarkson

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we both just moved on.
When people all stare,
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
Whenever I see you,
I swallow my pride and bite my tongue.

Pretend I'm okay with it all,
act like there's nothing wrong.
Is it over yhet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart,
what do i care if they believe me or not.
whenever i feel your memory is breaking my heart
i'll pretend that I'm okay with it all
act like there's nothing wrong

Pretend I'm okay with it all,
act like there's nothing wrong.
Is it over yhet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

I'm talking in circles,
I'm lying they know it
why won't this just all go away

Pretend I'm okay with it all,
act like there's nothing wrong.
Is it over yhet
Can I open my eyes
Is this as hard as it gets
Is this what it feels like to really cry
Cry

yes. I'm rather bored. cause my show is not loading :(

watch TVB's E.U. It's not to be missed.

Joel

It would be really shocking for those who know me, that I enjoyed myself with the kids at service learning today. YESYES. kids.

Normally I would probably be pissed off with the noise that they created!
But instead I made friends with them. So not Joel.

The 4 hours today was well spent. Playing games and doing handicrafts with them.

PICTURES!

So I woke up at 11am today but I told myself it's a sunday and since you haven't gotten enough sleep recently, you should sleep more. I slept 1pm! Hurray!!

After lunch, playing the piano and procrastinating. I finally dragged myself to the cross trainer. the OH SO MAGNIFICENT exercise machine which kicked the treadmill away.

I wanted to use it for 30 mins, but since I knew that I am unfit I decided to use it for 15 mins instead. What a lazy boy.

Point is, I only managed to last for 10 mins. HOLY MARCARONI. it's tough.
I was sweating like a pig(if they ever do sweat). i went something like that.

1 minute - ooh, this is quite easy.
2 minutes - still okay.
3 minutes - ok, i started sweating.
5 minutes - shucks, i am really sweating.
7 minutes - omg 10 mins of this is enough la. still wanted 15 mins.
8 minutes - wipes dripping sweat. why isn't 10 mins here yet.
9 minutes - quick quick i'm dying.
10 minutes - hallelujah.

I just crashed after that. the lesson learnt is, joel is unfit.
and cross trainers are tough.


joel

I've been disappointed hearing various stuff.
But life is always out to get you, to make your life tough.
To train you be a better person, one would is able to fight when it comes to the survivor of the fittest.

I would expect 16 to 17 years old to think more maturely, but apparently not.
You were seniors before, so think maturely.
This whole anti club thing gotta stop.
You're not here to create more trouble, you're here to make things better.
Yeah I myself am guilty of such anti clubs, I mean in sec 1 or 2. Not j1 la.
But that doesn't make me guilt free anyway. But because I've learnt last year and I don't want to see our mistakes happen again because it causes pain. It's GOTTA STOP.
Being older than them, you should be the one advicing them to stop. But no, you just gotta join in. We suffered and I'm sure you don't want them to suffer.

don't judge a book by its cover. and please think more maturely (3rd time. The art of repetition. To highlight my point). Yes, you may not look a day older than 12, that doesn't mean you can't think maturely.

BTs are almost over. yayness.


joel

what's a mispitch? what's a squeak?
you cannot let a minor setback affect you,
instead you should continue fighting.

of course these wise words are not from me.

thanks for the flowers!!

joel